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A Fairy Out of Her Tale - Dear Diary - 3. Scene 03

Nessa's first night away. She misses her family. And she thinks the diary needs a name.

1st January 1995

Dear Diary,

This is the last time I'll write today. The sun is setting, it won't be long until it's too dark to see your pages.

I'm scared of the night. Though not because of the darkness. I'm a big girl, those things don't scare me anymore.

The silence does.

I'm not used to silence. To not having friends listening to my ramblings and making me laugh. To not having my family being loud and playing pranks on each other.

I can still hear birds. The wind. There's a water stream nearby. And mosquitoes have been buzzing in my ears since I made a bed on the tree tops. But it's not the same thing. Those were the sounds of my home too. I can't bear to hear them and not hear mum's laughter, or my brother's endless ramblings about shape-shifter superheroes, or my step-father's cooking lessons as he made us dinner.

I wish he would teach me to make something tasty out of fruits and leaves.

Everything here reminds me of home. Of the good times I'll never have again. And it's only going to get worse in the dark.

I killed the man who used to tuck me in at night. Who read me books and made me ice cream and taught me how to build the leaf bed I'll spend the night on.

I don't think I really understand that he's dead. That I was the one who killed him. Or that he tried to kill me first.

Someday I'll write all of this down. I'll try to make sense of it. But for now I have to lock the memories away, or I'll have much more than silence haunting me tonight.

I hope you understand. You're going to be my only friend for a long time, I don't want to annoy you.

The sun is sinking really fast. Quick, tell me a joke! Do something amusing!

I must be losing my mind if I'm giving orders to a diary...

Who are you, anyway? I found you under a pile of old books and I couldn't remember where I got you from. A forgotten birthday gift? Sounds like the kind of thing younger me would do. Why bother with a blank book when I got so many dolls and dresses?

But you look too old to be a gift to me. Your cover is faded, even falling apart in places. I'm writing on yellowed pages. Maybe you belonged to mum at some point?

I should give you a name. If you're going to be my only social life for the foreseeable future, that's the least I can do.

How about ‘Bob the Book’?

No? Yeah, I think it sucks too.

‘Diana the Diary?’ It has a better ring to it...

Your blank face tells me nothing. Honestly, grow a spine already!

Look, you got me to make jokes! Sorry if they’re horrible. But it’s good to feel some part of myself coming back.

It’s now too dark to see what I'm writing. But thanks to you I'm not so scared of the night anymore.

So now we get an idea of what Nessa's family life was like before tragedy struck. We might even get a glimpse of who Nessa herself was before she lost everything.
What do you think the diary should be called? Are you on Team Bob, Team Diana, Team Other (Please Specify), or Team Why-Are-You-Bothering-Us-With-Such-Boring-Questions?
The next scene will be out on Sunday.
Comments and feedback make for a happy writer. Though Nessa probably doesn't care one way or another...

Anyway, see you Sunday!
Copyright © 2018 James Hiwatari; All Rights Reserved.
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James Hiwatari
On 1/14/2018 at 11:36 AM, D.K. Daniels said:

I loved the sense of isolation you brought in this chapter. Silence really does get to you quicker than almost anything else. Oh and Dianna The Diary has the ring to it :) 

Thanks!

 

We'll have to see if the diary likes the name Diana too. Seeing as it hasn't said anything on the matter yet, it might be quietly rejoicing that Nessa hasn't insisted on calling it that. Or it might be waiting for valiant souls like yours to strengthen its resolve that Diana is the name. Who knows? We'll have to wait and see.

 

Silence is probably the things that gets to me the most. I can't concentrate without background noise for starters - in everyday life it's even more depressing. I'm glad the sense of isolation came though. It won't be the last time Nessa feels that way, unfortunately. 

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D.K. Daniels
13 hours ago, James Hiwatari said:

Thanks!

 

We'll have to see if the diary likes the name Diana too. Seeing as it hasn't said anything on the matter yet, it might be quietly rejoicing that Nessa hasn't insisted on calling it that. Or it might be waiting for valiant souls like yours to strengthen its resolve that Diana is the name. Who knows? We'll have to wait and see.

 

Silence is probably the things that gets to me the most. I can't concentrate without background noise for starters - in everyday life it's even more depressing. I'm glad the sense of isolation came though. It won't be the last time Nessa feels that way, unfortunately. 

Awha, we've gotta make the name almost holy like so that she considers it noble like to choose. I love solitude, its possibly one the best things I know that I can truly delve into if I turn everything off socially. Then again I cant go a day without listening to music, music is a drug on my end. Though there have been times when I have been isolated and that's the impression I got.

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Will Hawkins

May I recommend a name for the diary?  If so, I would recommend the name, Belinda, it means beautiful and the reason I recommend it is that when I was a child I had a stuffed doy that I named Beloved Belinda. Belinda was one of the very few females that ever shared my bed. I slept with her for years until she finally fell apart. But all that is at least 75 years behind me now.

Okay, on to the next scene.

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James Hiwatari
19 hours ago, Will Hawkins said:

May I recommend a name for the diary?  If so, I would recommend the name, Belinda, it means beautiful and the reason I recommend it is that when I was a child I had a stuffed doy that I named Beloved Belinda. Belinda was one of the very few females that ever shared my bed. I slept with her for years until she finally fell apart. But all that is at least 75 years behind me now.

Okay, on to the next scene.

Belinda is a nice name (won't say beautiful because it's... redundant?). Though we'll see if you still think the diary deserves that name by the end...

I'm now trying to guess how old you are, if you've been doing "adult" stuff for 75 years... I'm guessing you're older than my 85-year-old grandma? :o

 

On to the next scene and all the replies I owe you from yesterday!

(I love when people binge-read my things, but it is unfortunate when they binge-read at a time when I'm not at home to do real-time interactions...)

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