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    Weekly Wrap Up (Sept. 20 - Sept. 26)

    By Cia

    While the Wildone is away, you get Cia to play. Okay, so I'm totally not playing. Saturday was my day of getting stuff DONE. Chores, laundry, errands, kidult stuff, the hubby took his dad to a funeral 2 hours away and had my car, it's fall so I made homemade chicken pot pie and then there was a SPIDER on the CEILING and my son told me to get it. I almost had to kill him. It. I mean it. The spider. Then he did it like a good son who is NOT afraid of his mother. 😇 Sunday is for fun though. My daug
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Please stay.

So lately I've been kind of emotional, and I haven't pinned it to anything. I'm controlling my emotions in the sense that only one or two people even know that things are affecting me the way they are. I've done a pretty good job of putting on a smile and not letting it affect my performance at work or my mood around my friends. Whenever I get home, though, I just feel like I want to eat a pint of ice cream and watch Will & Grace and not think about anything else (which I of course haven'
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DKStories, horrifying tales of junior high, and the Banana Man...

First of all... and most importantly... Davey is HOOOOOOOOOOOOME!!!!!!!!!!!   ... for a week :wacko:   dkstories... this one's for you (but only because now that you've been subjected to the amazing amount of nerdiness that Rich posesses, and I know you'll appreciate this. Robert, too!)   My objections to this video are rather limited actually... but it managed to create a rather LARGE and RIDICULOUS debate between Rich and I. So let me pose the question to all of you rather literar
viv

viv

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7 Pounds

One of the fun side effects of mood stabilizers is weight gain which is okay if you
CarlHoliday

CarlHoliday

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He's got something to tell me

...and I really shouldn't be trying to figure it out, but it's driving me crazy now!   So, if anyone happened to be following the "weird night" thread in the Lounge, they'll know that I purposely stayed up all night so that I could get some of that quiet alone time. Anyway around 8am I went to sleep. Well about 11:45 William called. He and a couple of other guys we're friends with had had plans this morning to go to this event. I was originally going to go with them, but it feel through.
AFriendlyFace

AFriendlyFace

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Uncensored

so I just found out about the censors after my last entry.   I expressly had the need and desire to say f**K!!   and if i was in the mood I'm pretty sure I could work the word i   This absolutely pisses me off. half of my well thought blog has disappeared. I'm tired. i.   i crave affection today for some reason. I just feel like my heart hurts and for the life of me I'm drawing a blank as to why.   I'm feeling like that alot lately. I just tired of doing whats expected of me al
faust

faust

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But Seriously

Ok kiddies. todays lesson you ask? Why do parents search and search for your boiling point and then when you reach it act like they haven't been feeding the fire of your unstoppable meltdown? and why do they insist on doing it so frequently that your constantly walking around with a permanent f**K you expression when you know they're nearby?   I honestly do think they can't help themselves anymore after you turn 21. I mean come on. i go to work and am there all day. I finally get in at
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faust

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On Acid

Valproic Acid, actually.   I went to the psychiatrist yesterday. Thankfully, he wasn
CarlHoliday

CarlHoliday

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Running Out

So I'm not unhappy or frustrated or anything. I wouldn't even describe myself as especially stressed or frustrated. Just...emotionally (and slightly physically) exhausted.   Fortunately, things seem to have settled down for me. Unfortunately, they seem to have heated up for most of my friends. Not only am I still trying to be there for Claire, but my other close childhood friend in a lesbian relationship is also having trouble with said lesbian relationship AND going through employment tur
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AFriendlyFace

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Muse, Where Art Thou?

My muse has been missing for a couple of days. I have no idea where he went. Oh, how I wish he would return as fast as lightning. I suppose everyone goes through such times. I don't think I'm "blocked", but I can't seem to think of anything when I try. I think it's more of a temporary kind of thing... at least, I hope it is.
Tiger

Tiger

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I started to read...

So, I started to read Tigers story, 'Second Chances' and already I'm ready to bust out in tears. It's because it deals with some touchy subjects, including suicide of a lover/friend. I'm not going into details quite yet, but it hits home with me in a lot of ways so far. So, Tiger, dear, wonderful story so far. I have started on another one shot and will be working with Gary and Jason to get it right and to get the feelings across correctly. Wish me luck.
S.L. Lewis

S.L. Lewis

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so...

Not brilliant words, but the first I have written in ages. I am hoping they have made enough of a crack in the wall for me to get through. Maybe it has, because I just finished sending a long email to someone I haven't really "talked" to in a while.   I've been avoiding most everyone for a while. Mostly because I have been withdrawn inside myself. I'm trying to get out of there because "inside myself" is a really anoying place to be. You all are much more interesting that I am and I wou
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Luc

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Something important.

I started to read GaryInMiami's post, Weird Night, and some how it we started to talk about why I write male/male stories. the conversation turned out to say (I'm in the pink while Gary is in the weird purple):     I go on to thank him and what not. I have started to write such a story, which I'm finding is indeed theraputic for me. I post this so that anyone else who has faced this type of lose knows that they are not alone out there. I'll post the link for when I post the story here, in
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S.L. Lewis

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"You're high functioning for being mentally ill.", and the weekend

-------Swear to god, someone told that to me the other day. I just kinda looked at him, a questioning look on my face, confused and surprised and offended. I guess I just don't consider myself "mentally ill." It sounds so, wrong. But I suppose it's true, bipolar disorder is mentally ill, though it's a mood disorder. It's most notable when people meet me for the first time. I've seen it many times. Hard to maintain relationships too. People are kept at a safe distance.   -------So Friday night
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ashessnow

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Meltdown imminent

I passed all of my finals thankfully and walked away with a 3.25 gpa. but my classes start back tomorrow. DAMN!!   Why do some people always feel the need to try to take advantage of you when you try to help them? I went into work saturday to make up a day missed on wednesday, and I was only supposed to be there to assist the girl who was working but she never even showed for work. during registration. needless to say everyone was past pissed, but add to that the fact that admissions were a
faust

faust

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Crisis of Faith

I went out with Viv the weekend before last. We enjoyed a sun and rain filled day at Disneyland with Will and Rich. It was a grand time all things considered. Will got a kick out of the "happy" guy in mock lederhosen who was checking seat belts on the Matterhorn. Horrible ride by the way, I swear I bruised my scrotum on its jostling turns.   For those of you who don't know, Viv doesn't do down. So that killed allot of the rides at the park across the way. Though we did have an interesting conv
shadowgod

shadowgod

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Better thoughts

So, so far, my electricity has shut off twice in 30 minutes, making me lose most of my information and right in the middle of a paragraph to. Both times! I hate dust storms. They get sand every where and irritate my sinuses. It sucks something fierce. But at least it's not snow! That's a good thing, right? Right, anyways. I'm now sitting here with a candle and a lighter within easy grabbing distance as I curse my cold. Apparently if you put me into a cold enviroment, I can walk out side wearing
S.L. Lewis

S.L. Lewis

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some thoughts...again.

Okay...so....bunny bites hurt...a lot...especially when they're plot bunny bites. I have a name for my newest chapter story. 'A Butterfly's Dream.' Thank you, Grame for the help with the butterfly part there. I have the prolouge in the sneek peek section and I am currently discussing it with Jason. We're trying to build a conversation. It's kinda hard to do when you have no idea what to say. But for now...I'm going to read his blog.
S.L. Lewis

S.L. Lewis

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fortune cookies

Your personality is fueled by the fascination you feel for life...   Mmhmm...   So I have a couple work stories...   *Disclaimer* I don't normally call people names like I'm about to use, or descriptions, but as I have no other way to communicate the details to you, I'm going to make an exception this time.   *On with the stories*   Last night at work, this gross, fat, hairy, man with man boobs came through my line to buy a frozen pizza and ginger ale. He was wearing a button down
viv

viv

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People are A**holes

Perhaps it's the energy drink talking, or the fact that I'm up at 3 in the morning desperately trying to finish writing a 5 page research paper, (that I haven't started yet) but...   I'm seriously getting fed up with people. People that for the past months I've spent so much time with just keep disappointing me. It's so immature and such childish behavior too and I just can't understand WHY. And what irritates me even more is that I put up with it, I give them the benefit of the doubt, hell
rich_e

rich_e

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My God, the epidemic has spread to Barnes and Noble

You know what! I'm starting to hate those who say they were once gay and are now straight. Want to know why? Because they 'found' Christ! My god people! I don't need to find Him! I already did, a long, long time ago. And you know what? I'm BI LEANING TOWARDS WOMAN! I like a soft curvy body to a hard body. Anyways, the overview says this for the book:  
S.L. Lewis

S.L. Lewis

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FREEDOM!

Fair warning to all those who live around hawaii.   I am now A Licensed Driver!!!   So for those of you who don't understand...   STAY OFF THE SIDEWALKS AND IN YOUR HOMES RWAR!!!   <--- Thrilled to finially have total and utter FREEDOM!   Will blog more after I'm done joy riding thru North Shore =P   -Mike
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Meeko

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The Letter

I went to the therapist on Tuesday and gave her The Letter.   Dear Mom,   Well, here we are. I
CarlHoliday

CarlHoliday

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