My journey through pain - 1. Chapter 1 - the beginning of fear

You are not alone.   You are in pain.   Writing is an excellent outlet.  I encourage you to share this pain through writing with the community here in hopes that we can life part of your burden.  Remember that no feeling lasts forever and that things WILL improve.  Its just going to suck painfully for a long time until it does.  Peace, Brother.

Keep fighting, tiger.

{{{HUGS}}}

Hugs. Keep fighting.

I understand part of what you're going through.  I've been in a similar situation in my past.  I survived and so can you. 

We all go through some very emotional times in our lives, some of those times are fairly easy for us to handle and don't become a problem, unfortunately some are those times are not so easy and they hit us hard. I'm sorry that you are experiencing the latter, but encouraged that you recognise that and have found your outlet to help you handle it, it shows your strength. It still won't be easy, at least not at the start, but this is your beginning of your journey in learning how to move forward and improving your situation and your life, and things will improve and become easier in time. I wish you well and encourage you to continue to post, many of us will support you and your posts will help us to understand and give you that support. And please do not apologise for being human and having feelings.

Darling, you do what you need to do to stay afloat during these times, okay? ❤️ I know I'm just a random profile, but I do care. Stay strong!

I've missed you around here and your stories. It breaks my heart to hear what you're going through. I hope writing this journal can help and I think you are brave to let us follow you in this. 

Reading this, my heart was in my mouth for a myriad of reasons. It can be such a solitary journey at times, to defeat the darkness, but you are not alone, Albert.  

Good talk goes a long way to helping get rid of hard things said. You keep up the good talk and we'll listen, and be there.

Hey,I m suffering thru smth similar so sorry buy I will not be reading it.I had what I wud call chronic depression 5 years back n I suffered thru it for 2 years.Since den it passed to being depressed all tim n giving up on living in general.It is d same now,so yeah,I know no1 can get wht another person is going thru dan d person himself but believe it or not.I do.I suffer from panick attacks too though dey hv escalated over d years.M doing smth similar like u,I hv started writing abt in on a website.Living os damn difficult huh.U can do it,m trying too ,though idk how long I can keep it up coz m ready to throw d towel once n for all,remember u r not alone.life is a bitch but u r still breathing aren't u?no matter u want to or not,u r right?so dere is a reason for it even if we don't know what it is yet.well,I hope.tc

It is non sense kind of,but shit ,m trying so yeah.u do it too.n if anything i wrote offended u somehow,sorry.

Flashbacks and nightterrors - two of natures finest destructors.

I found writing was very helpful - multiple journals now.

I hope you find the same healing.  It's never been "fast enough" - but looking back, I guess it has helped.

Thank you for trusting enough to share.

You are not alone , i feel deeply about this, if you need to yell, scream out, feel free im here to listen 24/7, i cannot take away your pain but i can support you and if you need talk to someone who will listen and never judge please message me.

John from England.