timmy's poetry - 50. September Winds

beautifully done. the sadness, and melancholy is very much here in this. for good or bad, we'll never know how many lives we've changed just by our paths crossing. 

besides the memories you leave with us that love you, you'll leave behind you beautiful writings for even more people to be touched by you and your heart and soul. to live in the hearts you leave behind, is a way to live forever.  you will live in my heart as a beautiful friend i met on my journey.

Your melancholia seeps through. I hope it doesn't last long. You've  made a huge impact many people. You've changed a lot for me too..possibly more than I've shared. So when you ask what good are memories, as much as I'd like not to think about it, I can only tell you it will be hard to forget someone who leaves you with so much. And that's more than just your writing tim..  

Love you, xoxo

I think we all wonder what legacy we'll leave behind when we're gone. What will we be remembered for? Who will do the remembering? These are natural questions. With your prolific writing and animated personality, it is no doubt to me that your legacy will be memorable, tim - but you have a long, long way to go yet.

15 hours ago, mogwhy said:

beautifully done. the sadness, and melancholy is very much here in this. for good or bad, we'll never know how many lives we've changed just by our paths crossing. 

thank you i appreciate you reading 

14 hours ago, dughlas said:

Rather forlorn tim. Your words flow softly but express deep questions and emotion.  The wheel of life is not meant to roll over you. You're walking on the wrong side. You can't live life by trying to stay ahead of it. Instead think of it as a hamster ball where you travel inside. A life powered by your exertions. Sometimes frantic other times not.

You're not the only one with memories of your life. Others have them too. So when you lie diwn that last time their memories remain. Then you and I differ in our thougts of what comes after.

Namasté little brother.

always been on the wrong side then i guess.. cuz i'm on borrowed time .. i dont know why i think about this stuff because it just doesnt matter not really.   thanks dugh xo

13 hours ago, Lux Apollo said:

Such melancholy...

just one of those mornings .. xoxo

13 hours ago, BlindAmbition said:

Such deep feeling and questions. I think everyone contemplates these things. However, the illness we share I think makes us think of this more. Live in the moment. Know that people like me love you. Yes, you have made a positive impact on people's lives! xoxo

yes anyone with a chronic illness like HIV or worse likely does  .. living on borrowed time it feels like .. but again, it doesnt matter in the long run.. .we're here and then gone.. we leave behind us the detris of our lives .. some of it may be seen... but why do i care, for i will be long gone.

13 hours ago, mogwhy said:

besides the memories you leave with us that love you, you'll leave behind you beautiful writings for even more people to be touched by you and your heart and soul. to live in the hearts you leave behind, is a way to live forever.  you will live in my heart as a beautiful friend i met on my journey.

thanks again moggy

11 hours ago, BDANR said:

Very hard to read, Timmy. I could def feel your anguish .

 

Sending hugs !

thanks. i appreciate the read and the hugs xoxo

10 hours ago, Reader1810 said:

We can be here for a hundred years, and have nothing to show for it. But you, my friend? You're way ahead of the curve in just a third of that time. You have shown us different ways to look at our world, and have done so with the honesty of your beautiful and compassionate soul. 

 

Through your words, you have shown me and many others what is important in this one life we are given. We ponder and contemplate thanks to the teachings in your words. 

 

Some may know with more certainty when their time will be up, but no one knows what will happen in the future to maybe alter that certainty. If I was in charge, I know what I would alter... 

 

 

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As always...well, you know the rest  

 

thanks Reader ... i just havent been feeling well ... and it feels bone deep..xoxo

9 hours ago, Defiance19 said:

Your melancholia seeps through. I hope it doesn't last long. You've  made a huge impact many people. You've changed a lot for me too..possibly more than I've shared. So when you ask what good are memories, as much as I'd like not to think about it, I can only tell you it will be hard to forget someone who leaves you with so much. And that's more than just your writing tim..  

Love you, xoxo

love you too boss ... 

6 hours ago, MacGreg said:

I think we all wonder what legacy we'll leave behind when we're gone. What will we be remembered for? Who will do the remembering? These are natural questions. With your prolific writing and animated personality, it is no doubt to me that your legacy will be memorable, tim - but you have a long, long way to go yet.

a lot to say and just a short time in which to say it ... i think that's my truth... and people will remember what they will .. but i'll be too dead to care... so really the questions are moot, Sir.  i appreciate the kind words.

Just now, Mikiesboy said:

always been on the wrong side then i guess.. cuz i'm on borrowed time .. i dont know why i think about this stuff because it just doesnt matter not really.   thanks dugh xo

You think about it because you're human and life has often been unkind, even downright malicious. Yet you persevere. Your time may be short, that was an estimated prognosis. You can lament it or live it. Your choice. Like all of us you to not know when your time will come due.

tim, I love you, you know that. I think you're feeling a bit of self-pity. It's not unwarranted just rarely helpful. As it changes nothing. Just be aware so you do not become mired in it. Okay enough of the stern big brother. Blessed be little brother.

Love you too. Maybe so. Just have been feeling so unwell. I want to do little but sleep. But there are things to say. Ill try not to be so morose.

26 minutes ago, Reader1810 said:

I've said it before, but it bears repeating. If writing about it, and sharing that morose (or whatever else you need to let go of) with us, your friends, helps you shed it - even if it's just a little bit - then do it. We'll gladly help you carry your load.  

 

Apologies for that very long second sentence. The thoughts just spewed out of me, and couldn't find a proper place to go... 

 

 

lol. thoughts spew outta me too sometimes..  thanks for being there.. i'll still try not to seem so morose