timmy's poetry - 28. Suicide

You'll get through this you're too strong not to.

You are much more important than some part of your brain telling. Be strong.

Killing oneself never gives a better result. I have witnessed it yesterday. A corps, which cannot even be looked by his life mate or children or siblings or parents or family members or anybody who was present there. I witnessed no one was willing to touch the clothes it was bound by. I touched and made some last rituals along with the Imams, who stand along the corps for the sake of God. I realised how a family suffers, broken by such misery. And this is for what!? Just because he can't settle his debts.

You can earn anything if your will is strong. Loosing that confidence only results in misery. Lots of pain to the people who you love and who loves you. Is this all you want!? No. I know it. You are better than this. Far more better than this. And I know you are hurting. So realise one thing. Taking the help of professionals is not a wrong thing. Taking the help of loved ones is not wrong either. Know that we all love you and be there with you, in the form of prayers, no matter what. Be strong. And rely on your loved ones if you can't. Just don't think otherwise. 

Love you...

~Emi. 

3 minutes ago, northie said:

 

I’m still breathing - yes, you are,  and once you've adjusted to your new meds, hopefully these thoughts will fade into the background. You're too bloody minded to do anything but survive, tim. For which, I and many other people, give thanks.

Yeah...bloody minded...lol  thats a good description of me...

16 minutes ago, Emi GS said:

You are much more important than some part of your brain telling. Be strong.

 

Killing oneself never gives a better result. I have witnessed it yesterday. A corps, which cannot even be looked by his life mate or children or siblings or parents or family members or anybody who was present there. I witnessed no one was willing to touch the clothes it was bound by. I touched and made some last rituals along with the Imams, who stand along the corps for the sake of God. I realised how a family suffers, broken by such misery. And this is for what!? Just because he can't settle his debts.

 

You can earn anything if your will is strong. Loosing that confidence only results in misery. Lots of pain to the people who you love and who loves you. Is this all you want!? No. I know it. You are better than this. Far more better than this. And I know you are hurting. So realise one thing. Taking the help of professionals is not a wrong thing. Taking the help of loved ones is not wrong either. Know that we all love you and be there with you, in the form of prayers, no matter what. Be strong. And rely on your loved ones if you can't. Just don't think otherwise. 

 

Love you...

~Emi. 

I am seeing my doc Emi...often and no suicide isn't the answer...

29 minutes ago, Reader1810 said:

Oh, no you're not.

 

Over the course of the time  I've known you, your creative mind has blessed us with many wonderful stories to read and intelligent and compassionate words to take as our own way of thinking. You have a brilliant mind that can't be silenced, no matter what. This poem may be dark, and scary and sad, but it's not just anyone who could string these words together as you have.   

 

Love you lots, my friend as do many, many more.  

Oh my k I thought this was lighter but it seems i missed the  mark... not going anywhere as northie says...

4 minutes ago, Parker Owens said:

Your poem is a deep and chilling insight into your hurt and darkness.  It helps me understand more about what you are fighting. But know that you do not battle alone. Remember that the flames of love, both small and great, are there, lighting and warming. 

Oh boy...this how my thoughts have been...but the poem...oh man ill put in an edit ...cant on my phone...love you too!

Be strong my friend, and when that strength feels like it's failing borrow some from Mike and all of us, until your own builds up again. 

Like the others i know you can get through this, you didn't survive what you have to let this get you now. Lean on Mike, lean on us, and know you're loved.

1 hour ago, mollyhousemouse said:

 

You'll get through this you're too strong not to.

I will molly...thanks

Oh little brother 

Light reading  

Send you lots of 

You'll be fine. 

Remember... if I don't give up. You Don't! I won't give up! Love Ya, XOXO

2 hours ago, Caz Pedroso said:

Be strong my friend, and when that strength feels like it's failing borrow some from Mike and all of us, until your own builds up again. 

 

Like the others i know you can get through this, you didn't survive what you have to let this get you now. Lean on Mike, lean on us, and know you're loved.

 

 

thank you Cazzie.. the plan is not to go anywhere at least not yet

2 hours ago, dughlas said:

Oh little brother 

i'm not going anywhere.. not this way..

Keep breathing.

One day at a time.

You'll make it.

I have faith in you. 

Love you.

Good days, and Bad days. I know all about them. It's another poem of your's Tim I feel you're taking straight from my soul or mind. Excellent work.

❤️❤️

This gave me the impression you wrote it while laughing and crying... Just hang in there and weather the storm. 

12 minutes ago, Puppilull said:

This gave me the impression you wrote it while laughing and crying... Just hang in there and weather the storm. 

mmm yeah somewhere in there i think  i feel better than yesterday for sure

3 hours ago, hoaluu said:

Light reading  

 

 

Yeah, my thoughts exactly...

Hang in there, Tim. You need time I think. Hugs 

Impossible not to take seriously.

I hope your meds aren't making the thoughts worse, as some can...

2 minutes ago, Lux Apollo said:

Impossible not to take seriously.

 

I hope your meds aren't making the thoughts worse, as some can...

yesterday was bad.. no lie.. they'd sneak in and say just go to the roof.. or there's razor blades.. and it was soo weird but the doc changed my meds again.. so its a bit better today