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    Weekly Wrap Up (Nov. 17 - Nov. 23)

    By wildone

    Steve has climbed into his cave and don't wake him up until the end of April.  I think it it is @Slytherin's turn to stay awake this winter   That bear just happens to be the colour of outdoors.  We got dumped on the past week. No road lanes, no sidewalks, no nothing. All buried in snow. It is beautiful if you don't need to go out into it  Also, the temperature dropped into the minus celsius without windchill  Winter is here, I hereby declare. May you all share the wonder of it  
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Candidate season

So much for a relaxing day off.  We're bringing in candidates for a few open faculty positions.  Flight for the one leaving today has been delayed / cancelled. Waiting on automatic call-back from the airline to cancel the last two legs, as the candidate has made other arrangements to get back home (weird set of coincidences, but at least they have a way back).
Fae Briona

Fae Briona

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Anything New?

So much has happened in the last year. There's so much I wanted to do, that I never actually managed to accomplish. Of course, a lot of that pales in comparison to my biggest accomplishment yet...Baby J. We waited so long for him, and at times I still feel like maybe we're living in a dream, or that something is going to happen that will take it all away. I try my best not to focus on the negatives, but sometimes it's hard. Then I look at that little boy's smiling face, or hear his little giggle
Renee Stevens

Renee Stevens

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Drug Wars (maybe other things)

Skip my bullshit minor problems if you want a good story and scroll to the bottom.   On 12.11.18 I went to go get my meds from Walgreens, the ones I have to take or I die (anti-rejection meds), and they only had a partial refill.  I thought fine, I have plenty of extra for a few days just in case, and you'll obviously reorder, so that's okay, I assume pharmacies overnight their drugs when needed.     Last Sunday I called.  No answer after fifteen minutes, the phone just disco
Razor

Razor

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January Plans

New year - same me but trying new ways.   After a horrendous year last year I needed help and have been talking. Hard admitting one is only human. It also helps to hear or be reminded that there are two or more sides to any story, and while your choices are your own, sometimes the things leading up to it,and the choices others make after it you aren't responsible for.   In other news I'm working on three projects. A story for the anthology using Seeon and the Waza family. A n
comicfan

comicfan

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Book Club Suggestions – Historical Novels Category

Hi all I have been full of work, so of course to escape that i decided to make a new suggestion. I will finally suggest a single book, and although to be honest the author did wrote a "kind of a series" around the same subject, Alexander The Great rise and rule, it can be a stand alone read. The Persian Boy by Mary Renault, tell as the story of a young boy that captured, made an eunuch and sold as a slave to the King of Persia. After Alexander conquering of the Persian Empire, he becomes Al
Sweetlion

Sweetlion

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Just one moment

I went to the gas station and like an idiot left my wallet, I just wanted to buy cigarettes (before you say it, yes, I know I'll get the cancer, I'm fully realizing that, I'm okay with it, I'm just gonna jump off a building when it happens, but for right now it keeps me sane, I like to borrow against my future, probably not healthy but we cope in our own ways).  I went to the counter and he said "6.67".  I reached for my wallet and SURPRISE, that shit is not there, because I've been so distracte
Razor

Razor

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Tha mi sgith

Had my second counseling session yesterday. Honestly not sure how effective they are. Things are, ever so very slowly, getting better. Getting easier to think of the good times and the memories without hyperventilating or collapsing into a pile of tears. Doesn't look that professional when it happens at work.    Biggest hurdles for me are still the guilt of not having told him that I loved him -- even though I know he knew I did, and I know he felt the same way about me; and letting
Fae Briona

Fae Briona

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Panicked apathy

A lot of the time I don't like to talk about what goes on inside my head very truthfully or directly.  I almost feel ashamed or dirty whenever I talk about it.  I hate the idea of talking about my thoughts and being rejected, made fun of, laughed off, or the worst possible consequence which would be making another person feel worse by sharing what I'm thinking.  The voices in my head shout alarms, and I end up in a strange state of being where I'm at once having a panic attack and also telling m
Razor

Razor

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"Adults don't understand the Internet." What??

Warning: Just in case you haven't read my blog before, I swear. Deal with it. Also, this rant is a mess. Deal with that, too.     A little while ago I came across a post on Facebook in which some Gen Z kid or another was saying how great it was to be under 21, because people older than that don't understand memes. (There was other stuff, too, but that was my takeaway.) And, I just, what? Who do these kids think they are?   First of all, the word meme was coined by Richard Daw
Thorn Wilde

Thorn Wilde

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Life be weird sometimes, yo

Okay so ever since I got really sick and had to take that huge leave of absence and then I got back to work and I was still sick and have been out like four times in the last four months because of various things, I've been terrified of work.  My job gives me panic attacks sometimes, I always feel like I'm going to get into trouble.  Why do I feel like that?   Honestly, I'm a pretty great employee.  I mean everything I do is right in line with what they want for the most part, and wher
Razor

Razor

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Friends and Family

Got an email this evening from a mutual friend of C and his sister. His sis isn't doing that well dealing with the loss; neither am I to be honest.  C was a very private person, with everyone it seems, so I spent the last hour trying to decide how much to say and what I shouldn't.  I did say that he was a man I loved dearly, that we had been dating off and on the the last several years, and that he was someone I saw a future with.  I included the last selfie he sent me (G-rated) and the pic of t
Fae Briona

Fae Briona

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Bean-oukselo

Spoke with someone at work I'm close with, who had known about my relationship with C, and told her what had happened.  She offered to get in touch with his sister ("M") on Facebook -- as I don't have a Facebook account (or Instagram, or twitter, or....). She got a response.  M did see the flowers I had left for C when I visited his grave, which makes me...  well, not "happy" but pleased? They're waiting on a response from the VA on the headstone, and hope to hear back soon, though with the gov.
Fae Briona

Fae Briona

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I sneezed

A funny thing happened to me while I was at work the other day.  I will preface this by saying you have to understand the context to get the punchline the universe delivered.  I've been dealing with major problems, like life or death problems, and usually if something goes wrong it's a trip to the ER and then admission and then days before they let me go.  I felt a small victory in the midst of dealing with this because it was so comedic in comparison to what I normally deal with.   So
Razor

Razor

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Painting

Painted more of the loft today. It's been cathartic - and also somewhat painful.  The loft ceiling slopes from 8' at the front of the room, overlooking the street, to just 27" on the back wall.  And the stuff that was in the loft is in a big pile in the center of the room, covered with a tarp. So...  not much room to work, and even though I can paint it sitting down and scooting back and forth the hips still don't like it. Will need a second coat, but that will have to go on tomorrow.
Fae Briona

Fae Briona

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That Call you Don't Want

I got that call that you don't want today.   I've been dreading it. I hoped it would take longer.   My brothers battle with cancer is over. He's going home for hospice care.    We don't know how long he'll last but it's not expected to be long.    This is why I've been away a lot. Silly cat pictures is about all I can manage at the moment.    I'll be back.     
JamesSavik

JamesSavik

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Great news my faithful followers

I am pleased to announce that I have began writing a new story, with the continuing adventures of Sebastian, his twin brothers, cousin Xander and Baron Sir Lewis Shaw. Regards Q
quokka

quokka

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dèanamh na tha math dhomh fhìn

Finally switching out some light fixtures in my loft, which means once that is done I can start to repaint, replacing the hideous colors that were there when I moved in. So this afternoon I cranked up the music (hopefully not enough to bother the neighbors), started some prep-work, and did a couple of test patches.  I'm a twisted individual who actually finds painting a room to be relaxing; and though some may have found my song choices to be a an odd choice for relief from grief, the music and
Fae Briona

Fae Briona

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In Medias Res

My friend S had me call the cemetery yesterday, to check to see if C's family had ordered a headstone yet, or if they needed more cash -- those things are expensive.  The cemetery sent a letter to his father, but I think they have the wrong address (they sent it within this state but last I knew, from not too many month's ago, his father lived one state over); but you'd think they would have confirmed the address they have on file??? They'll send another letter (to the same, possibly incorrect,
Fae Briona

Fae Briona

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Empty

empty frame decoration beauty at the edge in the beginning at the end beauty   but nothing except foolish  filler  mars  the captured soul    doubt refusal the sad silence the only gesture left       1.7.19 Monday
Toast

Toast

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December blahs

I'm terrible at keeping a blog.   Then again I'm terrible or so I've been told.   I'm feeling older than ever. Work has been crazy. Considering I work the return desk, this is crunch time. Long hours, little sleep, and worry about friends drains what reserves I have.   Add that I have a cold and blah.   My circle of close friends grows smaller and I know a few people are concerned. Considering my health and the end of a seven year relationship and friendsh
comicfan

comicfan

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"Wearing men's clothes doesn't make you a boy."

No. You're right. It doesn't. I'm not trans masculine because I wear men's clothes. I wear men's clothes because I'm trans masculine. It's not because they're more comfortable (though they are), it's not because I don't like women's clothes (I do), it's because if people are going to recognise me as not a girl, I need to have a masculine gender expression, which starts with clothes. I wear men's clothes for the same reason most cis guys do.    Whenever they talk about kids who are tran
Thorn Wilde

Thorn Wilde

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Feeling down tonight

Warning guys - female reproductive issues   This past Tuesday I had a total hysterectomy after 10 years of dealing with endometrial hyperplasia. After the surgery, the gyn examined a suspicious ovarian cyst and determined it is cancer. Good news, the cyst was intact and he believes he got it all, but sent everything off to a lab to be sure. Waiting on the results is wearing me down. Hormone induced mood swings probably aren’t helping. And no, I’m not a candidate for hormone replacement
DynoReads

DynoReads

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Home for the Holidays

Visit to the cemetery went well, I think.  It started to rain lightly as I was putting the flowers on his grave, which seemed somehow appropriate. It's only been a month so he has no  headstone yet. I need to try and call the funeral home next week and see if they will tell me if the family has enough $ to cover the cost.  I know I could just find his sis' number online, but I'm reluctant to do that for reasons I can't quite explain even to myself.   Started grief counseling last night
Fae Briona

Fae Briona

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