Web Guys - 42. Chapter 42

West

From Alan: You look so much like a married friend of mine I had to check that something big hadn’t changed in his life. Though he’s a few years older, a couple inches shorter, and a bit heavier. In any case, I hope you find what you’re looking for.

From west:  thanks.. he must be a truly fine looking man..   and you’re kind to say that and i appreciate it.. from all the way in western iowa..

From Alan: Both of you are good-looking guys, and you have the same red hair. Though his is going gray.

From west: red hair.. yes.. it goes gray early.. so you two shared fun times?

From Alan: No, as I said, he’s married and – as far as I know – has always been straight. I was an undergrad when he and his wife were grad students, so they’re 5 years older. Though they’re still raising kids.

From west: that’s understandable..

From Alan: In any case, as I said, you’re a good-looking man, and I hope you find who you’re looking for – if that’s what you’re looking for.

From west: i appreciate that.. you’re a nice man.. and you have me at a disadvantage.. you know what I look like..

From Alan: Oh. Sorry. Here’s my photo. And I’m not really sure about my being a nice man. I still seem to think too much with my dick, and I have since I was maybe 14. There’s some damage I can never take back. Though once I’ve got my clothes on, yeah, I’m pretty well-mannered.

From west: there’s nothing wrong with dick thinking.. even for an experienced dick thinker like you..

From Alan: It’s probably led the world into more trouble than any guy wants to admit. And I can really be very experienced because I never seem to learn.

From west: i love that sentiment yet i understand it as well..

From Alan: That was supposed to be “CAN’T really be very experienced.” But my dick doesn’t control what my fingers type. Afraid to think what would happen if they did.

From west: the thought of your dick typing is intriguing.. what a thought!

From Alan: It might work on a computer. Wouldn’t on an old typewriter. Though I once tried picking out Chopsticks with my dick. Of course, I had a friend to help.

From west: ah.. duets.. so much more fun anyway.. hell i would have liked to even just watch that..

From Alan: We were young, naked, and drunk – and thought that was a perfect combination.

From west: maybe *the* combination..

From Alan: Could be.

From west: tho we’re getting past it..

From Alan: The drunk part anyway.

From west: i was thinking young..

From Alan: Goes without saying.

From west: i still think of myself as young..

From Alan: Compared to our dads.

From west: even compared to you.. i don’t have your commitments..

From Alan: How do you know about that? I don’t think I’ve told you.

From west: but you can’t remember..

From Alan: No, I talk with too many guys.

From west: but i know who you are..

From Alan: Really.

From west: surprised?

From Alan: No. I knew it would catch up with me some day.

From west: not in a bad way..

From Alan: You never can tell.

From west: i can..

From Alan: You’re not one of my old students?

From west: we’re the same age..

From Alan: Have we met?

From west: once.. one afternoon maybe a dozen years ago.. in a bookstore in des moines..

From Alan: Sorry, I can’t remember.

From west: too bad.. you changed my way of thinking..

From Alan: About what?

From west: sex..

From Alan: I hope for the better.

From west: definitely..

From Alan: How? If I’m not prying.

From west: i was all fuck and run.. pump and go.. slam hard and forget about it.. you made me relax..

From Alan: Yeah, I like to relax.

From west: and i’ve kept to that.. and made a lot of guys happy.. so thanks.

From Alan: Now you’re embarrassing me.

From west: and you still have your clothes on.

From Alan: I’m probably red.

From west: that’s bad.. with your blond hair..

From Alan: It’s darker now... pretty dirty. That photo’s a couple years old.

From west: it will always be blond.. and tight and curly..

From Alan: And heading toward gray

From west: like my beard..

From Alan: I really need to figure out who you are.

From west: don’t bother.. i’ve seen you online for years and never said hi.. i didn’t want to wreck things..

From Alan: But then I wrote. Hope I haven’t messed things up.

From west: not a chance..

From Alan: Should I leave before I do?

From west: not gonna happen..

From Alan: You’re certain?

From west: it comes with the gray.. pushes back the dick thinking..

From Alan: You’re a better man than I am.

From west: i doubt it..

From Alan: Then take care. Maybe we’ll see each other again.

From west: that’s not gonna happen either..

From Alan: Why?

From west: cause i stopped looking.. at least for you.. and you’re right.. i won’t let anything mess that up..

From Alan: We must’ve had a good time.

From west: perfect afternoon.. if that can happen.. for a long time you’ve been my standard..

From Alan: Somewhere, I’ve been cast in stone.

From west: nah, something more flexible..

From Alan: Drunk, young, and naked.

From west: naked, young, and drunk..

From Alan: Wish I could remember

From west: i will for us both..

From Alan: Give me a hint?

From west: no.. it’s more fun this way..

From Alan: For you.

From west: never said i was a nice guy..

From Alan: You make me want to go back

From west: we can’t.. you can’t even remember..

From Alan: I will.

From west: well, you’ve got time..

From Alan: Not really. I’ve got to stop turning up here.

From west: why?

From Alan: I told you. Trying to stop the damage.

From west: you’ve probably done less than you think..

From Alan: Depends how you see it.

From west: i’m too self-interested?

From Alan: Maybe. And I’ve got to give some things up.

From west: stop the dick thinking?

From Alan: Try.

From west: we can’t.. it’s in us..

From Alan: I’m getting better. It’s gotten more important.

From west: well, don’t hurt yourself..

From Alan: I couldn’t.

From west: then do what you need..

From Alan: Thanks. And you take care.

From west: you too, man..

From Alan: I’ll look for you online.

From west: you do that.. cause I’ll be watching..