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Slippery Slope

As I slip further down the slippery slope there come pauses where normal function is enabled for brief periods of time. Today I had to go to a class on time management. It was either take it now or wait until July when it will be considerably hotter. I’ve decided I do not like the hot, humid aspect of living in Dallas. Don’t get me wrong, I think it’s a great town and would love to live here, but I’m too used to living in the Pacific Northwest where 100 degree weather is a rarity, not the norm.

Chatter from the Chatterbox

May 7, 2011

Strife and Harmony

Concerns About a Friend

I'm not going to say who it is or go into specifics. My friend is a really nice guy, but he has a lot of problems. Like many people, he's had a rough life. He is definitely not unscathed by it, and he suffers through episodes of mental illness. For over a month, he's been symptomatic, and I have not been in contact with him in several weeks. The mental illness makes him a very different person, and the last time he did contact me, he wasn't very nice. I realize it's not how he is deep down, but

Tiger

May 6, 2011

Fixing My Destiny

Forum sigs...

Cailen and I both made one coincidentally... for me. So... which one looks better? I like both, but mine seems a bit too plain... which is why I like Cailen's a lot. What do you think? I don't think I'll ever be as good as Cailen with his photoshop skills... lol I'm just not an artsy kinda guy I guess... Cailen's: Mine: <----- CLICK TO ENLARGE

J.T.

May 6, 2011

Apology... Explanation... Excuse... However you want to take it!

Okay, so... where to start.... Let’s start at the very beginning, a very good place to start. lol This is not a rant, merely sort of an info dump of sorts. I have been late in returning my edits and it might have seemed that I have been ‘Out of it’. Running around, and seemingly ditzy! (Well, more than normal, that is) I am sorry for causing inconvenience to those I have, and I know I have been the reason for quite a few. This is not an excuse, it’s just an explanation

Frostina

May 5, 2011

Grunge - Zen

I'm back, like, again?

I was deprived access to GA for some time now, due to a stoopid conference about the CCP or something. With some incidents happened in China recently, I seriously dislike this country right now. Anyway, I just found out that I again can log on to GA, so I'm writing this as a hello to everyone and a slight update de moi. It's official. I'm going to Syd, Aus for grad courses, since all the US schools rejected me. The only thing that's in the way is the student Visa. I'm expecting to get it i

Kev de Cauchery

May 5, 2011

Level Three

The last office building I worked in had three sub-basements. Actually, there was a fourth one, but no one worked there othere than to check for water seepage. I had a friend who worked on Level Three and she did not like it down there because she didn't have a window to see outside. I've pretty much decided to call the crisis line tomorrow morning, unless something dramatic happens between now and then.

S.L. Lewis Many Thoughts and Updates

May 5, 2011

twitches

The world needs to kiss my lily white booty! Darn fields with their pollen and stuff. *pouts and goes off to sniffle in dispair*

S.L. Lewis

May 4, 2011

peaceofthesouls' Blog

the sad part of being gay

to me that you seen time catch up to your face and your body all your lover and your partner and bf not there only a reflection of silver times

peaceofthesouls

May 4, 2011

journals of the poems

sometime i feel

saying to my first time to my first love remember and called me come back to me and say the magic words again so i can have the feeling again

peaceofthesouls

May 4, 2011

Remembering history and learning lessons

What has happened in the last few days will shape the course of World history for years to come. The last few months have ushered in the so-called "Arab Spring" on one side is inspiring a new democratic movement in the middle east and the death of Osama Bin Laden is a significant blow to terrorist organizations in that region in both symbolic and material sense. There are many things now that are open for the people of the middle east to choose. Yet, it is probably best that the choice be fo

May 4, 2011

jamessavik's Blog

We'll Meet Again

PEACE at last!

JamesSavik

May 3, 2011

Level Zero

I know I’ve said I hate being bipolar countless times here since being diagnosed three years ago, so you are excused if you do not wish to proceed. If I called into the Veteran Crisis Line right now and they asked the inevitable question, I would have to say, on a scale of one to five, I’m at about a two with my ideation of suicide. Two’s a good number. There’s a lot of space between two and five. Been to five, it was not fun. Five is a bad number as everything is seen in terms of its potent

May 1, 2011

Please don't neg other people's opinions

I noticed this in my thread after we started talking about health care in the Soapbox and I am thankful that you guys support my points, but please don't neg people for their opinions even if they are not well informed on what I am talking about. Quite recently due to my contention against Tea Party movement, I've been removed from the Gay Right forum, because honestly, I don't see their movement as conservative nor Republican as my beliefs and others run counter to their ideas. I challenge

April 30, 2011

It's over

Well, I think people know that tensions and lack of communications have been building for weeks now between me and my boyfriend. It's over now; we're going to remain friends, but we know that we're not meant for each other. It's the most amicable break up, I've ever had at the very least. The reason for the break up: I don't know. Maybe, we're too similar in our political views that we kind of grew tired of each other. Maybe, it was the religious difference that kept nagging at me

;; " .MidnightSecret. " ;;

April 30, 2011

- one day, you'll know. Just not today.

I've been so frustrated with you, and I guess it's because I have such a fascination with looking at you lately... studying all of the lines and curves of your face or the viens in your hands has become one of my favorite things. If you asked me why I like you, I would say I don't know for sure. It's not a question I can answer, because I don't quite understand it. I don't know why you first sparked my interest when you did. I'm not sure why I get extremely nervous

MidnightSecret

April 29, 2011

In the Filbert Orchard

I wish I would’ve had my laptop when I was at the funny farm, as it is not all was lost to the vagueness of mental instability. About a week into my stay one of the resident’s, D_____, sister agreed to bring in five composition books (those with the scrambled black and white pattern on the cover), so I was able to write an entry for nearly every day after that until I finally gave up in March. D_____ is a good ol’ boy from north central Texas who is proud to say both he and his daughter rece

April 27, 2011

Life in review

Went to the VA hospital today for an interview about my bipolar disorder. Seems I asked them to consider this as a service-connected disability because I’d seen a psychiatrist when stationed in Abilene, Texas, back in 1971 and ’72. I thought all I was asking for was a reconsideration of the existing disability on my decrepit knees, but, no, they wanted to know everything about the nutso side of me. As interviews go, it went well, I suppose. I don’t expect anything to come of it because the m

April 26, 2011

peaceofthesouls' Blog

good lines from very old manuscript just like the line

you know of elephant hoof you live in herd of elephant make your little elephant hoof with them we are no elephant

peaceofthesouls

April 25, 2011

The question of life and the universe

This is my musings on a reason for life and the universe if there is a God, beings of such equivalent powers, or some kind of greater effort. I don't know if this is an epiphany for the Easter Holiday, but it seems interesting enough: Out of all the Holy texts, it is never explained fully "why" life was started, whether you are Christian, Jewish, Muslim, Buddhist, or many assortment of religions. Yes, we have concept of creation by higher beings and stories from people that were "told" i

April 25, 2011

Easter Sunday

I spent Christmas at The Bridge, a homeless shelter on the southern edge of downtown Dallas. I’d been brought there by the Dallas police, in lieu of going to the psych emergency room at Parkland Hospital (the local charity hospital). It seems you can’t just say you’re suicidal on Christmas Eve, you actually have to have the rope around your neck, your feet dangling over the railing, the gun at your temple, or the knife or razorblade at your wrist to get a free ride to a warm place for the night.