300 Letters - 58. Letter 57 (Next Life)

4 February 2016

Dear C,

Today is International Cancer Day. Never paid much attention to it, but now I do. Once you or your loved ones have been touched by this fucking disease, your life is never the same.

Words cannot express how happy I am knowing that you are cancer free now. And I ask whoever is out there to keep you healthy.

I am sure you will stay like that till you are very, very old with grey hair and your loved one by your side.

I still remember that day (2nd of June 2015) when you called me and said you were diagnosed with cancer. I screamed. That was all I was able to do. Our flatmate Flam rushed into our room to check what happened. I broke. But I had no time to be broken. I had to take action. I needed to be there for you all the way. I put my court case aside to the far back of my mind and focused on you and your recovery.

Once, after leaving your hospital with Kasia I told her that if I only could I would transfer that cancer from your body to mine. I thought she would yell at me for saying this, but she looked at me and said that it was very brave of me to say so. She also said she would never be able to do so for anybody.

Anyway, it is over now. You are cancer free. No more "gruba dupa"!

In the gym this morning they were showing some statistics about cancer on Sky News and apparently 1 in 2 people will end up with cancer and just a few years ago it was 1 in 3. On a positive note though, there are 10% increase chances of people overcoming cancer. Yes!

As for myself, I think I am getting stronger every day now. There is still a big hole in my heart and I have been missing you greatly, but I guess I am slowly getting used to the fact that what we had is gone now. Maybe next life we will end up together? Or maybe not.

Forever yours,

Sebastian