tim's Bits and Pieces - 78. Haunted

I've got mixed feelings on this one tim. 

Emotions are are a never ending seesaw. You wake up happy, until suddenly you're not. I've laughed hysterically one moment, only to break down crying the next. 

Self-loathing is all too familiar. Different reasons, but just as real. Doubt, insecurity, past demons, whatever the reason, it's still a familiar foe. Sometimes we need to retreat to our safe place. That's okay.

On the upside, there's laughter. There's joy. There are those we love who hold us up when we need it. 

To recognize the hard parts of life and face them as best we can, even though it seems too difficult, that is what life teaches us to do every day. 

This one makes me a little sad, but only because you deserve more days of happiness. 

xo

In some small way I can relate. The day can dawn bright and lovely only to slip into something malignant. Yours is an ache of the soul while mine is an ache of the body. Now you have lanced the boil to release the poison there is always hope for tomorrow. I know I needn't remind you of how special you are to so many.

Powerful words. As always take care tim

I understand self-loathing and self hatred far too well. This poem made me feel as if a mirror had been turned on me in the clear light of day. It’s very well done. 

11 hours ago, Parker Owens said:

I understand self-loathing and self hatred far too well. This poem made me feel as if a mirror had been turned on me in the clear light of day. It’s very well done. 

i'm sorry you feel that way .. you do so much good and care for many. be that kind to yourself, Parker.

15 minutes ago, Reader1810 said:

I disagree. Your writing always makes me think. I may not share all that goes through my mind, but what you write are sometimes my thoughts, too. Thank you for being the brave one to say them out loud. Reading the comments helps, too.  

i agree 100%

26 minutes ago, mollyhousemouse said:

please don't take my late commenting to be a lack of caring

i just, well i don't know what to say except i'm here, we're here 

xoxo

 

i would never think that. never.

3 hours ago, Mikiesboy said:

i think posting this was wrong.. i love you too and appreciate your support and friendship

Nope.  Your feelings are your feelings and voicing them is never wrong.  💖

6 hours ago, Mikiesboy said:

i think posting this was wrong.. i love you too and appreciate your support and friendship

No, it wasn't wrong ... you displayed a measure of trust by sharing this with us. We love and cherish you, all of you, the good bits and the less good bits. How you're feeling matters deeply. I'm not the only one who believes that ...

4 hours ago, Reader1810 said:

I disagree. Your writing always makes me think. I may not share all that goes through my mind, but what you write are sometimes my thoughts, too. Thank you for being the brave one to say them out loud. Reading the comments helps, too.  

Edit: PS If writing this down and putting it out there helps you, then we’re okay with that. 

4 hours ago, mollyhousemouse said:

i agree 100%

2 hours ago, Kitt said:

Nope.  Your feelings are your feelings and voicing them is never wrong.  💖

Some of the most wonderful folks among us agree.

6 hours ago, Mikiesboy said:

is there hope?  i know you understand this but i'm not sure there's hope

you look after yourself

I believe so. Is life what we would have it be ... hell no. Is life now better than it was in our pasts ... hell yes. While there have been distinct highs and lows on the journey and others will come in their own time I think we both stand in far better stead than we ever imagined in those darkest of times. So yes little brother I believe there is hope. Namasté.