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Headstall's Reflections - 57. Chapter 57 Questions

Checking in with me....

Headstall’s Reflections

 

 

 

 

Chapter 57 Questions

 

 

In the end what really matters?

When we look in our rear view mirror

Is my image of me in fearsome tatters

Or is my vision of the world much clearer?

 

There’s only one to whom I answer

For any sins or fails or vicious acts

Do they consume me like a righteous cancer?

Have I misconstrued my own facts?

 

Do I find fault in my comportment?

A lacking of kindness in my heart?

My capacity for forgiveness lying dormant?

Have I cared only for my own part?

 

Looking behind while looking ahead

Is something that I have always done

Faint hopes it will stand me in good stead

For goals without insights are not easily won

 

Each day I strive to own all my deeds

Realistic expectations at the fore

But it can be like fishing in the weeds

Wallowing in muck while wishing for more

 

I never want to feel that man

Who stagnates in some static state

Life made me forfeit any grand plan

Still I’d rather fuel love than feed harmful hate

 

I get no joy from another one’s pain

And bear my own with fragile unease

Whether back or forward, it will give us no gain

Extracting cruel and exorbitant fees

 

Yes, metaphoric mirrors are tricky tools

Only I can see what mine might share

We’ve each our own to make us fools

When we choose not to see what it lays bare

 

 

Thanks for reading. I hope this strikes a chord with you. Self examination in ongoing.  :)   Cheers....  
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Just uncanny and spooky, my dear friend!  I was taking a little break to think on a section of my chapter for Jay, and decided to look here for the umpteenth time today, and found this self-reflecting gem.  That is exactly what Mikey is doing at this point in my chapter....

What insane sort of link ties us together sometimes?  Part of it is my love and admiration for the nicest soul I've ever run across, the rest must be the way our views mesh on so many aspects of life.

:hug::kiss:

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6 minutes ago, ColumbusGuy said:

Just uncanny and spooky, my dear friend!  I was taking a little break to think on a section of my chapter for Jay, and decided to look here for the umpteenth time today, and found this self-reflecting gem.  That is exactly what Mikey is doing at this point in my chapter....

What insane sort of link ties us together sometimes?  Part of it is my love and admiration for the nicest soul I've ever run across, the rest must be the way our views mesh on so many aspects of life.

:hug::kiss:

Thanks, buddy. This comment came at the perfect time. Self reflection has always been my way. I'm a thinker... and it takes a lot to get me to react. Am I always right? No. I only do what feels right to me after much thought, and I would like to think I would never be so pompous as to not even consider any damage my actions might cause. I'm not smart enough or psychic enough to see into the future, though :) . You are very kind to see me so, but it's how I see you as well, my friend... yes, we are of a like mind, and I am thankful... cheers... Gary xoxoxo

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Wow, Gary what made you think of this? So deep and analytical… I have often stared out the review mirror and you are so right, there is only One who will judge us for our past acts be it good or bad and He is the only One who maters. Furthermore, we have to forgive in order to be forgiven and it can be such an arduous task especially when you have faced such adversities in life. I really hope those metaphoric mirrors I look into show good and very little bad. This really got me thinking and thanks for sharing…Great work as usual!:2thumbs:

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1 hour ago, LitLover said:

Self-reflection can be a tough thing to do honestly, and you capture that well here.  Are we who we think we are?  Do we like what we see?   I think, in the end, that's a question we only have hope to be honest with ourselves about in the privacy of our own minds.  

 

Great job, my friend :hug: 

Yeah, the honesty part is a must, or it's a total waste of time. We all have our own perceptions, but I believe there are fundamental truths, and those are the gauge I use in judgement and consideration of myself. We all have to use our own, but it is my hope that many of them would be shared by most people. Do unto others... it is the core of my expectations for myself. It's always good to check in with ourselves... it's the only way there is a hope for both personal growth, and peace, when all is said and done :) 

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25 minutes ago, patrick1991 said:

Wow, Gary what made you think of this? So deep and analytical… I have often stared out the review mirror and you are so right, there is only One who will judge us for our past acts be it good or bad and He is the only One who maters. Furthermore, we have to forgive in order to be forgiven and it can be such an arduous task especially when you have faced such adversities in life. I really hope those metaphoric mirrors I look into show good and very little bad. This really got me thinking and thanks for sharing…Great work as usual!:2thumbs:

Thanks, patrick! I have many reasons to reflect, and poetry focuses my thoughts and stirs my need for gauging my self worth. I won't waste time trying to please everyone in this world, but I won't intentionally hurt anyone either. Every action causes a reaction, but as you say, we have to know who to answer to... for me, it is myself... the man God and my experiences helped mold. As I said in another response ... do unto others... and that doesn't mean pleasing all people... it can't. Sometimes the road has bends you couldn't possibly see coming... and it is those times you need to know where you stand within yourself. I'm so pleased to hear it made you think. I've been doing nothing but think lately... cheers, to you and Shawn... and thank you so much for commenting... it really helps... Gary :hug: 

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20 minutes ago, dughlas said:

You been doing a great deal of self examination here of late. This is good just remember not to be too much the critic of what you see. Namasté my brother.

Yes, I really have, dugh. I need to ask the questions in order to find the answers. Have you noticed how the questions never get easy, as much as we may know ourselves? Yet... we always find answers as long as we do the grunt work. Mine are making themselves known, slowly but surely, and yeah, it does no good to look with an unbalanced view in either direction... lol... feeling very philosophical this evening... Namaste, my dear and kind friend... Gary... :hug: 

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On 7/25/2017 at 6:53 PM, LitLover said:

Self-reflection can be a tough thing to do honestly, and you capture that well here.  Are we who we think we are?  Do we like what we see?   I think, in the end, that's a question we only have hope to be honest with ourselves about in the privacy of our own minds.  

 

Great job, my friend :hug: 

If I wasn't who I am, and thought about consequences of actions, I could have ended up like my father. It wasn't an option for me. He was a narcissist who cared only for himself... selfish, childish, and a bully... I've spent my life thanking God I am nothing like him... still, I won't let my guard down, and I do the hard work... thank you, dearest friend... :hug:  xoxo

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On 7/26/2017 at 5:19 AM, R J Drew said:

I wish I knew how to weave the words to express how this poem touched me, but I'm too rough around the edges to fully explain myself. All I can say is..self examination is essential to growth. 

 

 

I honestly think you sell yourself short, R J. I've read your weavings :) . And you understood my own perfectly. It's so easy to get stuck in a loop, or let someone else do your judging for you. Too often we concern ourselves with what others think, not considering they could be wrong... 'Know thyself'  ... Thanks, my friend. I'm pleased this touched you :hug: xo

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