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Headstall's Reflections - 3. Chapter 3- CG- On My Mind

I wrote this one night a few days ago. I should say early morning, because I couldn't sleep. I am trying to stay positive for my friend, but what he may be facing, and what he has to go through, tears me apart. I had no intentions of posting this... but, I guess I changed my mind. We love you, CG.

Headstall's Reflections

 

 

Chapter 3- CG- On My Mind

 

 

It resonates inside, the pain of others

Wishing we could give the comfort of mothers

The mockery of life may divert our own pain

But if that’s the case, it’s a minuscule gain

 

I confess from this fright, I wish for respite

But nothing compares to the battle you fight

I fervently wish the best for my friends

My sympathy sears for the goodness chance rends

 

Powerless I feel, in too many ways

As life’s cruel whip cares not who it flays

Sorrows abound, surround and astound me

So unfair this threat for the skilled weaver in thee

 

Your travails, they stir in me so many things

That I yearn for some sleep, and pray fragile peace it brings

Just know in your heart I care immensely for you

Cruel challenge aside, please trust that it’s true

 

Your reality is tragic, and may seem yours alone

But believe me it’s not, with the friendships you’ve sown

The sourness of my stomach percolates fears for you

Plead fates intervene so they never come true

 

In tough times like these, faith is something I turn to

Faith in what, I can only wish that I knew

I’ll utter my prayers for the comfort they give

In the chance that such litany will let my hope live

 

I’m certain your friends wish they could do more

Given the chance we’d all walk through your door

Wrapped up in this angst, we’ll wish for the best

And accept that with living, life’s always a test

This is for you, CG... I expect one day you'll be able to read it for yourself, but if not, I will read it for you. Much love and respect... Gary...
Copyright © 2017 Headstall; All Rights Reserved.
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On 01/01/2016 04:28 AM, Reader1810 said:

Out of likes :heart: :heart: :heart:

 

Being unable to do something, no matter how strongly we wish we could, is very difficult. Knowing that we gladly would if we could will have to suffice.

 

Difficult subject, but beautifully expressed my friend :hug::kiss::hug:

Thanks, Reader. This was all about CG, but, after writing it, I worried it came across as being about me... glad you saw it differently... cheers... Gary....

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On 01/01/2016 05:44 AM, J.HunterDunn said:

Thanks for sharing this with us, Gary.

Your poem conveys so well the feelings of dismay of being unable to help someone near to us, if only near in spirit.

It doesn't matter whether it's called praying or something else. As long as it's good thoughts I'm convinced the energy will reach him. Your poem contributes to that.

I's all we can do. :heart::heart::heart:

Thank you, Peter. This validates what poured out... the almost unmanageable fear for a friend... I know we all feel the same... I find myself thinking about his situation a lot... cheers... Gary...

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On 01/01/2016 07:05 AM, Mikiesboy said:

I'm glad you decided to post this, Gary. It's wonderful and I'm sure CG will cry when he's hears of it or better, reads it himself. Prayers are simply good positive energy and which can do a lot of good.

Thank you for sharing.

tim

Thanks, tim. I hope he gets to read it himself. I've been doing a lot of praying lately... it helps me feel like I'm doing something for CG... cheers... Gary...

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On 01/01/2016 07:27 AM, AC Benus said:

It's a very personal poem, Gary, but it expresses what many of us hope and feel.

 

Thanks for posting it

I almost thought it was too personal to post, and was going to keep it between CG and myself. I feel okay about it now... it is about what we all feel for this sweet and talented man... thanks, and cheers... Gary...

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On 01/01/2016 07:36 AM, Kalandor said:

Breathtakingly beautiful. I do believe sharing something personal works a bit like a prayer -- all of us think of your friend at the same time...

Thank you, Kalandor. Well said. I'm glad you liked it. I think Columbus Guy is important to a lot of us on this site... I really appreciate what you've said here... cheers... Gary...

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On 01/01/2016 12:16 PM, LitLover said:

:hug: thank you for posting this. You stated so beautifully what so many of us are feeling.

Thanks, Lit. You know how much I value CG's friendship. I know I am not alone in this... I just happened to be the one who wrote this. but it IS from all of us... thanks to all of you for letting me speak for you... cheers... Gary...

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I cried again when I read this tonight...it was the second time hearing it though. I'm pretty sure Gary read it to me, or my friend Derik did while I was recovering in a rehab center from my surgery. This is my first time seeing the reviews and Gary's replies, and it made me cry all over again.
Every week he called me to tell me what was going on here, and to talk about a lot of stuff...all of it lifted my spirits, and there were days when I really needed that. Knowing you all, and most especially Gary cared so much was the best medicine for my soul. This was particularly true when my two older sisters turned their backs on me. I haven't heard from either of them or my nephew since about Dec. 23rd.
I thank whatever deities there are for my friends at GA, and my real-life friends Kat and Derik who went above and beyond, giving me shelter between operations, and flying in from California to help me get a new computer with Narration software which got me back to my online family.
I'll never find enough words to convey the depth of my appreciation and love for you all.

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On 04/30/2016 11:44 PM, ColumbusGuy said:

I cried again when I read this tonight...it was the second time hearing it though. I'm pretty sure Gary read it to me, or my friend Derik did while I was recovering in a rehab center from my surgery. This is my first time seeing the reviews and Gary's replies, and it made me cry all over again.

Every week he called me to tell me what was going on here, and to talk about a lot of stuff...all of it lifted my spirits, and there were days when I really needed that. Knowing you all, and most especially Gary cared so much was the best medicine for my soul. This was particularly true when my two older sisters turned their backs on me. I haven't heard from either of them or my nephew since about Dec. 23rd.

I thank whatever deities there are for my friends at GA, and my real-life friends Kat and Derik who went above and beyond, giving me shelter between operations, and flying in from California to help me get a new computer with Narration software which got me back to my online family.

I'll never find enough words to convey the depth of my appreciation and love for you all.

You don't need to find any more words, CG. Having you back is all we wanted,, so while you think you're lucky, we think we are. It wasn't difficult to call you regularly... I enjoyed every conversation... It kept my spirits up too. We love you, buddy... of course we do... cheers and xoxoxo... Gary...

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